sticking to this overhaul has been one of the hardest things i've done, especially in the face of personal hardships.
as most of you know, we have a beautiful dog named riley.
we've gone through so much with her ... training, surgeries, emergency room visits, medicines, separation anxiety, chewing ... you name it, we've gone through it with her.
for the past week or two, it's really been too much for us to handle.
we've been discussing our options, including selling the dog.
let's face it, we live in an apartment, and she deserves a yard.
we work all day, and she deserves even more attention than what we can give.
what we DO give her, in abundance, is our love. that's what makes this hard.
last night, i broke down. we thought we had decided (thanks to our pros and cons list), to definitely sell her. then she came and snuggled up next to me, like she always does.
i cried. i shook. i wanted to have fistfuls of chocolate, and about a gallon of dr. pepper. i wanted to not only break my progress, but smash it to little pieces.
i was mad at myself for even considering the thought of selling her.
why couldn't i handle this?
thankfully, we called my mom, and she's going to take her for a few weeks, to allow us the chance to step back and really think about it. she's also going to try her hand at better training her (and giving her a place to run around).
i didn't break the overhaul—i think i would have really regretted it this morning—but settled for sitting by myself and allowing for some "calm down" time instead.
every day is a challenge, but it just goes to show you can make it through. tonight's challenge? driving the six hours to mom's house when alex gets off work (at 7 p.m.) and not having any caffeine.
keep us in your thoughts; more posts to come on monday.
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