things that i've noticed over the past five weeks.

my skin is clearer.

my arms are smaller.

my ankles aren't swollen.

my thighs are shrinking.

i have a collarbone again.

my chins are going away.

oh! i have cheekbones again!


my nails aren't chipping as much.

my feet are shrinking.

my small pants fit!

(lastly, alex swears that my boobs are getting bigger ... truth is, my waist is getting smaller!)

i'm finally starting to see some small changes ... what a motivator!

me, then and now.

first of all, forgive the bad hair.

here is me in at 18. i was about 132-135 (my lowest "adult" weight).


sometimes, this body is what i think i look like — until i catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror.

i don't think 132 is a good place for my body to be, but this look is my goal (sans the hair). this is what i picture in my mind when i want to get healthy and thin.

here i am today at 25 (and-a-half, thank you very much). there's about 65 pounds of difference.


when you think about it, i've gained 75 pounds in 8 years. not to mention all the fluctuations i've experienced ...

i want to have my perception of myself match the true vision of myself.

this journey may be long, but at least i'm traveling it.